Tuesday, August 22nd, 2006
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5:05 pm - The Adventures
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Z has been out of the US for about 3 and a half weeks now- something like that. Just knowing she isnt even in the country has us all feeling icky. She went to the UK (for 2 days), Ireland, Italy, and is heading to other places like Egypt (wtf), Japan and I believe Australia will be her last stop. Though I am confused and not so sure about all those places because her schedule keeps changing.
We understand why she is doing this but I do miss her so much. Everyone misses her and she calls like ALL the time. Before she left she got a brand new phone so we can reach her anytime if she isnt busy. I just worry about her working so hard and all this traveling.
It has been quiet here. Erin has been working long hours as had Dean. I have been maintaining the horses and the houses to keep things running smoothly. I start College in Sept. thanks to Z! I am very excited but nervous!
Wish me luck!
Pointes Down and Head Up,
Kayla
current mood:  missing Z
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Sunday, February 19th, 2006
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4:04 pm - Congrats Erin! :)
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The ceremony for Erin’s request for Mistress training was very pretty. Z went out of her way to make it very special. She got pretty fresh cut flowers and made a wonderful lunch afterward for everyone with the help of Dean. Erin was basically the center of attention which was very nice. She deserves it very much so! It was almost like her birthday or she graduated or something. Now she is an Apprentice Mistress. I am very happy for her. :)
I will write more later; for now I shall just leave it all at that.
Be well,
Notoes
current mood:  happy
current music: Hysterix - Talk to Me (Sasha's Full Remix)
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Friday, January 27th, 2006
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3:33 am - stuffilies
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Well I dont know what to say. Matimn says she wants me to write in LJ more about stuff not regarding her which is hard for me cus she is my life aside from ballet/dance of course. LOL (sorry Matimn love ya more then Ballet but you come in to a close second hahahahhahahhaa you know I am jokin lol)
I have been feeling awful lately. I had to reschedule several dance classes because I just cannot stand for long periods of time without wanting to...well die. Erin called and said that she needs to stay an extra few days in Washington State where she is doing some on the job stuff. Ever since Erin and Matimn had their talk Erin isnt so territorial anymore. She knows she is staying so she doesnt have to prowl about peeing on everything- ok NOT peeing- but basically hanging around letting everyone know that Z is HERS and she is STAYING. lol
I cant sleep so here I am feeling like hell typing this out on Matimns laptop. She is letting me sleep in HER bed. ~geeks~ I love it! All the biggness and pillows and happiness! I dont know why she doesnt always sleep on this bed its awesome! Instead half the time IF she sleeps she snoozles on the bed in her office- which its a nice bed and all but not as nice as this! I feel like a princess! YAY!
I misses Erin :( I hate being away from her. She will be home soon.
The other day R and I decided to cheer Z up some by putting silly wigs on her and doing her make up all fun like. We snapped a whole bunch of pictures of her. She looked just wonderful. She thinks she looks like hell but for going through what she has been through with a little photo tweaking of hers she can erase a lot of stuff that she thinks makes her look horrible- I personally think she looks damn good.
Um...what else? Oh, so many special dates coming up in Feb. Here they are:
Feb. 2nd- D and R's 4 year anniversary
Feb 4th- D's 45th B-day
Feb 14th- Valentines Day
Feb 22- Rian's Birthday (which makes me so sad, and I know will make Matimn sad)
Feb 26th- BB's Birthday
Feb 28-March 1st- Z's Bday! (hahahahhahahaha ~gulton for punishment~
Nighters,
Peachlies
current mood:  good
current music: ~the voices in my head~
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Wednesday, January 25th, 2006
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12:33 am - Z's B-day :)
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Friday, January 13th, 2006
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1:16 am
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Everything has fallen apart & there is nothing we can do to stop it. I don't want to go back to Ohio. :(
current mood: sad
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Monday, December 26th, 2005
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2:11 am - Beauty Queen / Horses
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Z has been playing these two songs constantly. I don't mean she is playing the CD- I mean she is physically sitting at her piano playing these songs and singing them. I love these songs dont get me wrong but she has been playing alot from Tori Amos' "Boys for Pele". That kinda worries me.
"Beauty Queen / Horses"
-Tori Amos
she's a beauty queen
my sweet bean bag in the street
take it
down out to the laundry scene
don't know why she's in my head
can't figure what it is
but I lie again
~*~
i got me some horses
to ride on
to ride on
they say that your demons
can't go there
so i got me some horses
to ride on
to ride on
as longs as your army
keeps perfectly still
and maybe i'll find me a sailor
a tailor
and maybe together
we'll make mother well
so i got me some horses
to ride on
to ride on
as long as your army
keeps perfectly still
you showed me the meadow
and milkwood
and silkwood
and you would if i would
but you never would
so i chased down your posies
your pansies in my hosies
then opened my hands
and they were empty then
off with superfly
sniffing a sharpie pen
honey it's bill and ben
off with superfly
counting your bees
oh me honey like
one two three
the camera is rolling
it's easy like
one
two
three
and if there is a way to find you
i will find you
but will you find me if
neil makes me a tree
an afro a pharoah
i can't go
you said so
and threads that are golden don't break easily
current mood:  okay
current music: Z playing piano :)
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Friday, December 16th, 2005
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4:05 am - Z
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Well, Z was arrested yesterday and may go to jail for assault if the guy presses charges which he hasn’t decided yet, but we had to bail her out this time around. I bet most of you are wondering what happened. Well, long story short this low level lackey at Erin’s work was messing with her. She made it very clear to him she didn’t want shit to do with him and he still made his advances. Well he ended up cornering her in the parking garage. Erin came home really upset which in turn caused Z to just flip. So, like Z does she waited for the guy in the parking garage and cornered him like he did Erin. She confronted him and it turned physical. He threw a punch at her and she basically cracked open a keg of whoop ass on him. She left him there. LOL Just kicked his ass and left him there to bleed. ~falls down laughing~ oh that’s good stuffs. So he went home and called the cops. He filed a police report and everything. Z isn’t one to run from her actions and she told the guy as he was riving in pain on the floor, “That’s R. Zoë Salutor…spelled S-A-L-U-T-O-R…my address is in the phone book…” LOL Can you believe that?! She told him straight up like…she dared him to call the cops. Well, when the cops showed up to our place needless to say when they saw Zoë they burst out laughing that this guy got whooped by a five foot nothing barely 90 pound sickly girl. ROFL They didn’t even handcuff her. They just set her in the back of the car. Z even had her bail money ready how funny is that?! So Erin basically followed the cops down to the station. We will know soon whether or not he is pressing charges. We are thinking at best she will be on probation and have to go to anger management classes. LOL All she does is sits there and giggles about it. She has changed so much since she got sick. She just doesn’t give a fuck anymore.
I still love her. :)
K
current mood:  giggly
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Thursday, October 6th, 2005
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2:57 am - Beautiful Night
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Erin and I were going through a box of Z’s things. This Month marks the 1 year anniversary Master has passed on. Erin and I have kinda found ourselves at a loss. We figured perhaps going through Z’s stuff would make us feel better. She always has such fun stuff. We came across a good sized (not huge) wooden chest in her closet that was locked. Upon closer inspection we figured out the key that belonged to it also belonged to her huge toy box at the end of her bed. After getting her permission we opened it.
Inside were Z’s memories of the days when she first entered the House of Iliad up until she finished Mistress training and her Guardian training. All the reports, notes, and daily journals even the soft leather bound book with her name embossed on it that Master kept his own notes in- even the original Receipt for payment that saved her life. As we read through the notes and cards, flipped through the pages of journals, and looked at pictures we realized she had put/hid a piece of herself away in this box.
We found her slave collar and cuffs along with a beautiful ring. Examining them Erin and I both realized how cherished she was in Masters Eyes. Through his notes and journal entries was a picture that was painted of a man who really adored her and wished to have her at his side as an equal. She was his weakness and his strength. She was his other half. She completed him.
As Erin and I gently placed her memories back into the box both of us realized why Z is the way she is as a Mistress. How she is a reflection of our beloved Master but she is also her own person shape, molded and formed from a horrible abusive childhood. (We didn’t know she was actually property.)
And like a fairytale she loved him so deeply it caused her pain because she never felt that before. So, she ran and he let her go knowing eventually she would realize her mistake…but there was no happily ever after. He died before she could come back and now the Princess lies in bed alone dying without him by her side. She still wears his collar (the everyday going about your business collar) in the form of a chain with a fairy on it. We didn’t realize that until I saw it in several pictures. Then she let me look at the back of the fairy where it had his initials engraved on it.
Erin and I lied in bed with her on either side remising about Master. She rarely talks about him but tonight she told us things we didn’t realize before. She held me tight in her arms while I rested my head on her chest and cried.
I feel better. I feel like a weight has been lifted off my chest. I know Erin feels the same. We have no doubts in our mind Z will get through this because she is so much like him. We have no doubts because…She is our Mistress.
Kayla
current mood:  content
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Tuesday, October 4th, 2005
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12:44 pm - Thinking...
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When I was straightening up yesterday in the Master bedroom I had found a pile of notes writen by Z. She has been studying astronomy again. I always knew she was into it but she seems more insistent to have these books about her so she can look at them. Often times she will sit there to weak to even hold it up so she has Rian (when she has her good days) holds the book and the two flip through the pages.
Well, I found a catalogue with a telescope circled in it along with a few other things. I went online to see what it was exactly. I wish there was something I could do. She already practically sleeps with her camera. She carries that thing everywhere she goes like her cell phone. LOL I can’t imagine her carting around a telescope. Well, ok so I know she wouldn’t but still we would never get her or Rian inside. What if the cool air gets her sicker?! I can’t help but think this could be a bad idea and a good idea all together. Should I say something to Erin or should I just talk to Matimn?
Erin check these links out:
http://shopping.discovery.com/stores/servlet/ProductDisplay?catalogId=10000&storeId=10000&langId=-1&productId=56904&partnumber=713743
http://shopping.discovery.com/stores/servlet/ProductDisplay?catalogId=10000&storeId=10000&langId=-1&productId=11562&rel_productId=56904
Maybe I should talk to the both of them. I don’t know! I am gonna. Maybe we can make this happen. I mean after all Z loves the stars. Hell she loves them so much she gives stars as presents- literally! The International Star Registry has had a good 8 years with all the stars Zoë has purchased, named, and given to people. Weird thing is she doesn’t have her own star named after here and I asked her why but she won’t answer. You know she really likes you if she is naming a star after you. LOL
I will figure this out wif Erins help.
current mood:  thoughtful
current music: Sound of the News
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Monday, September 19th, 2005
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6:46 am
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Wow, Matimn is mad and no one knows what about. She has been stomping around here since Saturday. She hasn’t snapped at any of us but she has been short with um...KM...which makes us all wonder what the hell he did to get on her bad side. I hope she doesn’t rip his head off or anything. LOL cos I would have to clean it up!
I have so much to do today. Things are calming down a lot here well except for Matimn being on edge and sick. Matimn is teaching me Elvish. Kewl huh? I am still trying to translate what she put in her journal. LOL Wish me luck. ;)
Points forever,
Kayla
current mood: content
current music: Listening to the News
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Monday, September 12th, 2005
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11:17 pm - Overhaul
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I am fixing up my journal and basically changing it all around. I deleted most all the entries. I hope it will look nice. :)
Kayla
current mood:  awake
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